A constructive evaluation

What makes some people better then others. I was once naive enough to believe that you could just be a right and just person and the world would open up its arms with possibilities. My delusional thoughts were impaired by my sheltered surroundings. I'd like to say I moved out and into reality and my eyes opened to the realization that all my loyalty and good intentions would get me no where. If anything my honesty was seen as weakness, my kindness a opportunity for others to use it to their advantage. Being a "decent" person proved to be worthless in the real world. So I wiped off the shoe marks from on top of my head and recreated a version of myself that would provide a armor for the selfish world that surrounds me. This armor didn't care if someone was having a rough day and wouldn't serve any help, nor compassion for others. Soon, I don't recall the exact moment, it went from being a shell to completely running me over. I lost good people in my life and didn't care because my new mind whispered in my ears. Why should I care if old acquaintances didn't care enough to reach out and speak to me. From time to time I have moments of my old self and a compassion I once had for others, I quickly wipe it away. People are so inconsiderate of others. Unwilling to look up from their phone for five minutes to drive a car, or convey any respect for the others around them. To involved with whats going to further themselves, or pro-trey them as better than anothers. What happen to someone holding a door open, or waving as they walk in front of the car you just halted for them to pass. What happen to stopping to help someone on the side of the road. It got lost somewhere between the inter-web and the iphone. Common courtesy got lost with the invention of the automated answering service. And somewhere in all of that the world lost it's way. I can place the blame anywhere I'd like. Or perhaps the world has always been in this state, and I'm finally using my vision for the first time. I'm left with a uncertainty of where I go from here, and a fear that my children will have to go out into this world. How can I prepare them for the coldness of reality and not compromise their morality. How can I simultaneously teach them to be a fair person while installing self preservation within them. I'm in fear of where society as a whole will travel from here. Where does god ring into all of this mess? Why is it the good are not "lucky" enough to move ahead while the evil and corrupt are glorified for their actions? Where did we go so wrong that our own family will steal and cover up their lies with a smile. I've decided that some are better then others, just not as lucky.

Reasons I love my Hubster

The hubby and I will have been married for 5 years and so I thought I'd make this, reasons why I love my hubster post!

1. He is the complete opposite of myself and that completes me.
   
2. He speaks up for both of us cause I often tend to be to nice to say what I think.
   
3. Hes a awesome dad who will get on the floor and roll around n play w/ the kids.
   
4. Hes not afraid of hard work and he goes out n works hard every day for us without complaint.
5. He drags me to see movies I'd normally not see, ignoring my protests only to have me actually like the movie at the end (tho I usually won't admit it.)
   
6. He eats all his food plain.
   
7. He's very handy and can usually fix most things with his handyman skills.
   
8. He opened my eyes to the joy of country music n brings out my country roots :)
   
9. He's got style. Seriously the man knows how to look good.
   
10. He always smells nice too ^_^.
    
11. I love the way he fidgets with his shirt when he is driving cause he can't get comfortable.
    
12. I love the way he fiddles with his hair in the morning to get it "just right", he might kill me for posting some of these LOL.
    
13. I love the way he'll use a wallet until its just a couple pieces of leather held together by some thread unless I force him to use a new one.
14. He'd rather have a big ol steak then any salad.
    
15. He's got a really hot temper and it might not always be the best thing to have, but it does have its great moments!
    
16. He'll watch any movie at least once, doesn't matter what it is.
    
17. He's a obsessive clean freak.
18. Hes soooo smart. really intelligent.
    
19. I love the way he makes up his own words to sing along to songs on the radio.
    
20. He can pop lock it! JK! But he'll sure try.
    
21. Hes soo outdoor-sie! He'd rather be out in the yard fiddling then inside watchin TV.
    
22. I love how he won't read the books I like, but he'll sit then and listen intently while I ramble on and on about them and even ask questions!
    
23. We have a similar sense of humor.
24. He puts up with all my odd lil things I am and do.
    
25. He gave me two lil joys.
    

I can't believe we'll be married 5 years, its been a crazy crazy five years but I wouldn't change any of it.

Owwww the new days....

Hello all!

I know I haven't added a post in a couple weeks. I've been forced to use my hubby's laptop because my motherboard went out. Now my computer is back up and running again, thank-god! I missed her so much haha. I know that's probably weird to connect with a inanimate object but in the words of Max Guevara "she's an extension of my soul if there is such a thing."

Things have been really busy for us every since moving. We had to purchase another car, because our Truck blew a head. (We think, not positive..bout 94% sure). Sooo while we are saving to fix it, we have purchased a Ford Focus. It's really great on gas, and just a nice small car. Once we have the truck repaired, the car will be mine and the hubs gets his truck all to himself lol. I should said I've very disappointed because though I find our car better for the environment, I have soo many attachments to the truck. As you have probably read in my other posts, when I met my hubby he was driving our truck. (He'd just bought it months before meeting me.) So I recall our first dates, he proposed to me while I was sitting inside the truck, we brought both our babies home in it, and just soo many other fond memories. I'd very much love to just drive the Truck haha, but it is his. All men have something thats "theirs". His super fast boy toy lol.

I'm STILL unpacking. Though I have unpacked most of our essentials, we still have a lot of boxes, and bags with stuff that had been packed away in our closets at our old place, and now it is time to go through them. I've made it through half a closet worth, and still have a whole other one to sort through. I'm hoping the hubs will help me next weekend. He was going to help me this week but he burnt his hand rather badly, and has been dealing with that. It's looking better finally but still sore. I'm hoping it doesn't scar.

Anyway, I will post another update soon! Thanks for reading all my rambles!

Annnddd life goes on.....

Hey everybody, this is just another update. A lot has happened this week so this is just a ramble about my life.... soooo we finally found a place. It isn't a house like we wanted...we are still looking around for one we can both agree on. It's another apartment, but its bigger, has a patio, fireplace, and is closer to my n laws. Some people are probably thinking right now "HOW IS THAT LAST ONE BETTER?" Well I happen to enjoy my n laws so nannerrrr to you if you got a suckie pair >:)...mine are cool. Anyway, we cut our travel time to their house in half by moving which would save us on time, gas, etc....EXCEPT:......I think we blow our truck up :(. Yeah... almost two years ago we spent a perdy penny putting a new engine in our truck, after a piston dropped and busted the Head Gasket. I think thats how you spell that, not sure. I don't really know anything about car's except how to drive them...and they require gas and air in the tires. But I can hear, and we drove our truck to pick up something to eat and its really cold here...and well something didn't mix, because the truck ended up sounding like a weezing old man and had water flowing out of it's under regines.... and it died. I'm REALLY upset...because if it is something once again wrong with the engine...that means we paid a ton of money to drive our truck two years....also it's our only means of transportation since my car's transmission decided to go boom several months ago. *Sigh*.

I'm really attached to our truck. I met it the first time I met my husband, and it has since been related to him. When I think of our truck I think of him. It was in the truck my hubby and I dated, went out to places, drove to our wedding in, brought our babies home from the hospital in, and if the engine is blown...again....I really don't think we will be sinking the money once again into it to fix it. So I'm very upset. Maybe it's silly to be so attached to an object...but...I am.

But not only did the truck go out... but it decided to do so TWO DAYS BEFORE WE MOVE. Luckily my hubby has a cool family.....so we have several people with trucks to help us move. I am not about to pay a uhaul to drive from our place....30 mins to our other places. Thats just silly when you can do it yourself. We have to be moved out of our current place by the tenth..we have five days. So on top of all of this...Texas decides to go on a date with Alaska and we have a freak ice/snow storm that won't go away. Roads are crazy, ie is everywhere, people are freaking out. It would happen to week we are moving. I'm really stressing out. The only good thing that has happened to me is I found several cloth diapers and inserts, and prefolds on sale at this great diaper website I found online: www.CottonBabies.com and I have a great family who let me order what I wanted for my bday coming up. Super excited to be getting some new stuff in! :) It's sad I look forward to cloth diapers in the mail...T_T......now I just need a few more prefolds (lrg) that are snappy friendly and I'd be in buisiness. Lucas is growing out of his current prefolds. Anyone have any brand suggestions? If so lemme know!

Anyway, sorry if I've rambled, or things don't make sense..it's 4am here and I couldn't sleep so I'm tired/stressed and too lazy to use spell check. Thanks for reading my rambles ya'll! =)

-Robin

My Cloth Diaper Update!

Hey everyone!

This is a cloth diaper update! I've been cloth diapering for almost 4 months now and things could not be going better! I have saved a lot of money and though it's extra work, this has made it worth the effort. I started out trying to figure out how to get a prefold on my son and now I could do it at 4am while I'm half awake with no troubles and a wiggling lil boy! I'm very proud of myself. I'll actually be uploading a video of a cloth diaper review once I get our move over and settled...and I just ordered some thirsties products to try out so I'm going to be trying those out as well and seeing how I like those. I ordered two AIO's and one cover. I absolutely needed a extra diaper cover so badly. When I had started out cloth diapering I started out with just some gerber prefolds (which are NOT prefolds in my opinion) and some of those rubber gerber pants...they were pink to because I'd had them left over from my daughter and my husband was not happy with his son running around in pink rubber pants. But now I'm collecting a very nice stash of diapers. Mostly I've been using my gdiapers for day use. I really love them, however I use mine so much that the elastic on my liners tends to wear and I had to buy some new liners for them last week because my old ones had started to leak. I ended up going to a store near us called BuyBuyBaby and they sell gdiapers there, so I bought a pack which comes with three liners. Now that I have extra's I won't be using the same liners over and over again so much so hopefully these will wear less. I also have a few bum genius which are nice, the only problem I have had with these is that he moves and runs and crawls they sometimes leak out of the side so I have to adjust them around his butt a lot. I still use just a prefold and a snappy with a cover at night, and sometimes during the day is I'm in the mood for that. Once I get my thirsties in I'll blog a review on those, but I've heard a lot of great things about them.

Anyway, just wanted to do a update on those. I'm proud of myself for staying with the cloth for this long. =)

Update!!!

Hey everybody!

Sorry I haven't been posting How To's. I've been really REALLY busy. This post is just an update on whats going on with me!! =) So we are moving by the end of January. My husband and I are trying to buy a house, so we have been looking at all kinds of different places, houses, trying to find one. It's kinda getting down to the dead line because this month is almost half over and we still haven't decided for sure on a place so I'm kinda stressed out. We are trying to find a place with three bedrooms and two baths. We have a couple places in mind. For the moment until the kids get bigger, we'll probably have the kids share a room, because my son still sleeps in his crib in our room. But having an extra bedroom will be better when they get older and need their own rooms. Our experience in our current Apartment has been horrible! I've never had such a bad time in an apartment and while I've been married we have lived in three apartments so far and the other two were really great and we had no trouble with them and this one has been horrible. I am sooooo ready to get OUT!

Anyway, on top of packing, moving, etc. we have my daughters birthday coming up next month. She'll be 4! I can't believe my baby is already four.... so I've been planning for that. She decided to have a Hello Kitty birthday (no I didn't convince her to do this). I think she is going through a stage where she has decided to like everything I like. She recently has gotten into Harry Potter, watching the movies, reading the books, etc. I've been reading her the tales of the beadle and the barb. So I might move on to reading her the first book. I gotta wait until we move though because they are already packed lol. She's also started really loving Hello Kitty, I think because she knows I like it. And I've been collecting again. I had stopped collecting HK like I use to when I had my son because of having a new baby, and getting the hang of having two little ones. Now that I've started up again Madi has started to pay more attention to HK which I think is cute. One day she'll go through her teen years and hate everything I like haha, I hope not but we'll see.

I started a youtube channel. ::Click Here:: I've been posting all kinds of videos on there. My next video will probably be a Cloth Diaper Review video. Because of moving and getting our internet switched over, etc. I may not be on for a little bit when we move.

So that's my update. Once I get everything settled I'll start doing more How To's again. TTFN! =)

Just a Random update about Random Stuffs!

Hey everybody! So I haven't had time really to do a lot of crafts because we are in a process of preparing for 1. A Move and 2. My daughters birthday, plus Christmas, etc. that has just past and it's just been crazy here. So anyway, I probably won't be uploading a huge amount of How To posts until after we move. I'm thinking of posting my first online video and I'm debating over the subject matter. This might sound kinda crazy but a few of my friends have told me I should do a "My Handbag Collection" video because I have a lot of them. So I'm thinking of doing that now that I have a youtube channel. Soooo I may do that. I'll probably end up doing that when my hubby is NOT around because he would find that just tooo funny LOL. Anyway, so I might do that maybe tomorrow morning because that is usually my most peaceful time in my house...the kids are usually in a good mood because they have just woke up, etc. Anyway, so just wanted to do a lil post.

<3 Robin